A quiet beginning.
Hi, welcome to my very first blog post. This is my first time attempting to write here. I mainly wanted to get into the habit of writing while sharing somewhere on the internet; this tiny space seemed perfect.
Giving a voice and space for my thoughts has always been a challenge for me. I am more of a person who is always lost in her mind. I usually like to listen and observe others. This is also the reason why I love books because I admire the way authors convey their characters' feelings. The beautiful ways words can be woven together never cease to fascinate me. Ever since I was a child, I wanted to be like that too. More eloquent with my words. A silly desire to be a writer.
Isn't it amazing how you can relate to fictional characters? or an author whom you never met, but somehow by their use of words, it feels so intimate like they see right through you? I love books that feel personal and intimate. That is also the reason why I obsess over quotes I find scrolling through Pinterest on hours end. How somewhere, someone wrote something that feel like it was written just for me.
I haven't read that many books. But I like books that have a very literary aspect to them. This is why I liked the books "The Bell Jar" and "My Dark Venessa" both being very controversial novels.
But I like it in the sense that I love the use of words and how they conveyed their thoughts and feelings rather than the character and plotline.
if I dive into how I felt about "The Bell Jar", I didn't like Esther at all lol. Her racist remarks and attitude made me feel uncomfortable. She is not someone likable and the book doesn't force you to like her either. It was raw, honest, vulnerable, and uncomfortable but also very real and that is what I appreciate so much about the book, and why it holds a close place in my heart. I have seen a lot of love and hate in the book community. Some absolutely love it while others hate and I can see both sides.
For me, I don't like the main character, but I love the use of words and vulnerability in it. I also saw a comment where it mentions how Esther is an unreliable character, as she is a very selfish and judgemental person. I also love how you can hate the character, but love the book overall because of its poignant use of words.
So I would say it holds a lot of depth and complexity. And this is what I mean when I say "The Bell Jar" is one of my favorite books. I have gained a lot of perspective and it has a lot of valuable aspect to it other than just being a depressive sad book and an unlikable character.
I will maybe dive into "My Dark Vanessa" another day. This is it for this post, see you in the next one. <3